Whats my Legacy?

If I were to die tomorrow I don't think Id have anything to show for it. I work in a bakery and spend my free time reading. I have always wanted to travel but I don't take action to really go somewhere. I have all these plans and ideas that feel like I'll never get a chance with. I believe I'm a dreamer. In fact I know I am. Does that mean that Ill never really hike the Appalachian trail or build a small cabin on my own plot of land? Or backpack across the UK? I have this feeling I get every once in a while that makes me want to pick up my things and move to a new place a start all over. I know that if I want to be remembered for something I'll have to take the first step. My only problem is being lonely. Will I ever have a one true friend that I can count on? I could sure use one right now.

In Another Funk Again

I have been way off my game the last few days. I can't seem to do things right. My self esteem has taken a nose-dive and I'm pretty sure it's PMS. I keep crying over everything. My work. My money. My future! That's the one that seems to keep turning in my mind is that I need to figure out what I want in life. I just finished watching 'PS I Love You' with my mom. the tears were endless. Every time I saw Gerry I cried so much my eyes are sore. Why can't I have a man like that? Someone I can share my life with and love me forever? This funk depression come on every couple of months. Then my mom gets the fun job of listening to me go on and on about my life and how I need to get out and do something. Nothing ever comes from it and I'm sure in a few months it'll happen all over again. She's the only support system I have right now. Wish I was stronger and able to really do something about it. Meet new people. Maybe later though, I'm completely exhausted. Off to bed I go. Hope I feel better in the morning.