So sad.

I heard about this family tonight, they were putting branches in a wood chipper and the dad only turned his back for a second. That's all it took. His six year old son put a branch in there and got sucked in. The dads other kids were in the yard helping too and they all saw it happen. The grief councilors had to come straight down there with the family. My prayers are with them. It make's my problems so petty in comparison. Rest In Peace sweet child. Be with god.

Needing a sign.

Yesterday I was happy all day, and then later that night I went to Walmart with my mom. And when we went through the self-checkout the machine said I needed aproval from the cashire and she carded me. For a dvd! I didnt have my wallet so all she said sorry and turned around and left (with my dvd). Embarrased I wanted to get the hell out of there but the machine froze up and she had to come over and fix it again. Anything to leave but my mom pulls up and I guess even though Im 23 my mom has to be present and its all ok. At this point I was physically shaking. About two secend away from having a meltdown and I dont care about the dvd anymore I just want out. Out, out, out! But oh no, my mom wants me to buy the dvd I dont want anymore and she wont leave it be. I toss over the cash so I can maybe get out of there without a breakdown and the alarm dings over the door as we leave. That was the breaking point that set me over the edge. Hating myself that Im crying in public. I cryed all the way home. That happens alot when I PMS.